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i'm sorry that i haven't loaded anymore stock but maybe this epically long post will explain it all ... also i'm going to upload stuff as ive got a long weekend from work so please read this journal just to feel wonderfully good that as unimportant as this problem is to every one but me ... a problem shared is a problem blasted over the internet in a modern age where nothign is private
So if you want to read this and comment, I have a feeling it's going to be mainly full of sex, men and work related stresses please feel free...
I'd just been texting my ex this morning and trying to meet up. It may seem a little pathetic, as many people have said to me that 'an ex is an for a reason'. Maybe they're right but I don't think the reason we broke up exists anymore. He was going to move to a different city, and sighted 'not wanting to hurt me anymore than he already had' as the main reason why we split. it was a few days before Christmas, December 18th exactly, and about midnight. I was watching Supernatural. Of course it turns out that the 'small possiblity' of him staying actually happened, hence the situation we now find ourselves in.
thing is, he's lovely, he means a lot to me and as flawed as he is i can't really imagine anyone better then him. it's like he's perfectly chalk to my cheese. somehow it worked while we were together.
This is our history:
we met in a nightclub. I'd just a few hours previous broke up with a rather crap boyfriend and feeling a little bit down had begrudgingly gone out with my friends. I remember sitting on her bed crying, before steadying myself fixing the makeup and getting into the taxi.
I'd met him once before, but we hadn't spoken, and given the passive aggressive mood i was in, a table full of people i didn't know well was not what i wanted. still i had persevered and had tried to make conversation.
It was a little later, when we'd gone to the night club, an alternative club, when the girls went off dancing, and had left me stood with the lads. he offered me a drink, and we started talking. The conversation was the normal stuff, what did you do, a little history and a few funny stories. I randomly tied a ribbon round his finger (it had come off my bracelet) and he didn't bat an eyelid.
He asked if i smoked, i said no, and he said he wanted me to come outside with him. So i did, we carried on our conversation and ended up staying out there for a while because several times my friends (well our friends) came to look for us. Neither one of us being particularly trusted to behave by our respective friends.
Eventually we went back in the club, and that's when he kissed me. I guess from there is pretty much the entire night kissing him. and he asked for number and the rest is history of dating, watching films and staying round his.
Now if you followed that and are still reading thank you so much
i sent him a text yesterday that was asking if he wanted to come and see me... however he text back today saying :hi sorry i'm working till 10 tonight, y did you want me to come over?
at that point i felt sick as clearly he doesn't want to meet up with me and doesn't care...
or i'm over reacting ... i can't tell anymore
but surely if he was going to meet me he wouldn't ask why?
So if you want to read this and comment, I have a feeling it's going to be mainly full of sex, men and work related stresses please feel free...
I'd just been texting my ex this morning and trying to meet up. It may seem a little pathetic, as many people have said to me that 'an ex is an for a reason'. Maybe they're right but I don't think the reason we broke up exists anymore. He was going to move to a different city, and sighted 'not wanting to hurt me anymore than he already had' as the main reason why we split. it was a few days before Christmas, December 18th exactly, and about midnight. I was watching Supernatural. Of course it turns out that the 'small possiblity' of him staying actually happened, hence the situation we now find ourselves in.
thing is, he's lovely, he means a lot to me and as flawed as he is i can't really imagine anyone better then him. it's like he's perfectly chalk to my cheese. somehow it worked while we were together.
This is our history:
we met in a nightclub. I'd just a few hours previous broke up with a rather crap boyfriend and feeling a little bit down had begrudgingly gone out with my friends. I remember sitting on her bed crying, before steadying myself fixing the makeup and getting into the taxi.
I'd met him once before, but we hadn't spoken, and given the passive aggressive mood i was in, a table full of people i didn't know well was not what i wanted. still i had persevered and had tried to make conversation.
It was a little later, when we'd gone to the night club, an alternative club, when the girls went off dancing, and had left me stood with the lads. he offered me a drink, and we started talking. The conversation was the normal stuff, what did you do, a little history and a few funny stories. I randomly tied a ribbon round his finger (it had come off my bracelet) and he didn't bat an eyelid.
He asked if i smoked, i said no, and he said he wanted me to come outside with him. So i did, we carried on our conversation and ended up staying out there for a while because several times my friends (well our friends) came to look for us. Neither one of us being particularly trusted to behave by our respective friends.
Eventually we went back in the club, and that's when he kissed me. I guess from there is pretty much the entire night kissing him. and he asked for number and the rest is history of dating, watching films and staying round his.
Now if you followed that and are still reading thank you so much
i sent him a text yesterday that was asking if he wanted to come and see me... however he text back today saying :hi sorry i'm working till 10 tonight, y did you want me to come over?
at that point i felt sick as clearly he doesn't want to meet up with me and doesn't care...
or i'm over reacting ... i can't tell anymore
but surely if he was going to meet me he wouldn't ask why?
time for something less negative
life is complicated enough without people making it worse
as anyone who actually reads this journal knows i have a pretty crap lovelife and i tend to complain on here so i though hey i should write a journal that is positive and about things i like .... remember ages ago i did a similar thing?
I like mint hot chocolate
I like where I work
I like staying up late for no reason
I like sleeping in
I like going out
I like getting drunk
I like having misadventures
I like my eyebrows even though i spend far too much time on them
I like when you can get into clubs for free
I like painting my nails
I like boys
I like men with hairy chests
for god sake
hello
message from ex (we're talking about his new job which i've suggested is as a prosititute)
Lol sorry. Lol yeah I'll just have to catch me one lol. Lol no I'm not it that line of work, y would I be? Lol
(me) Lol, because you're good from what I remember ... Lol
(ex) Lol if you say so, but don't think I'm good enuf for that line of work.
(me) Lol well to be fair you did manage to er push my buttons shall we say a couple of times which is exceedingly hard thing to do so you must have some skill :p
(ex) Lol did I now, well that's a good, yeah I must be doing somthing right, just don't know what lol.
(me) Lol Yeah or something wrong
News Ahoy! Tales o' th' High Seas
Ahoy there
th' saucy wench cAnDiEsFoReVeRyOnE be usin' ye olde tongue o' th' english.
well not really, facebook has recently launched a english (pirate) language setting which i think is maybe the best thing ever.
so here's so excellent pirate lingo that i just wanted to point out ...
show only th' cycle of the moon & the sun cycle on me litanyof Misdeeds
Keelhaul
Scourin' the seven seas fer wooing
Thing ye do when there be no rum
Peer into the depths
Adjust ye' rigging
Th' vain wench scrawled on 'er own likeness in 'er portrait
'bout 7 turn o' th' hourglass
T'day upon the hour of 11 : 19 in the mornin'
This be pleasin' to me ey
I Like I Like I LIke I Like
ok so here is the continued list of stuff i like, beings as i'm in a happy mood ... and people liked my i like journal ... so here you go...
I like watching short-lived series that are canelled after the first 6 episodes or something.
I like writing things on facebook that make people think one thing when really it means another.
I like how i only like *him* when i'm not around him
I like the boxing section on the wii active
I like the fact i act horribly guilty when i think i've got caught
I like having a job over summer
I like the fact they killed jim off in ghost whisperer
I like words that end in erer
I like dancing even though i
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I wish I could say "Yes, he really cares about you but he's just being shy" ... but I know guys a little too well for that. He might have a serious scheduling conflict to deal with, but I'm sorry to say, more likely he's thinking about what's in it for him.
I wouldn't go so far as to say he should only come back on his knees - but if he was the one who left you, he's got to show SOME kind of remorse. In any case, you're putting yourself on the short end of the stick by inviting him back, and if he doesn't respect that, then I can only hope you can summon up enough disrespect for him to drop the invitation.
Best of luck!
I wouldn't go so far as to say he should only come back on his knees - but if he was the one who left you, he's got to show SOME kind of remorse. In any case, you're putting yourself on the short end of the stick by inviting him back, and if he doesn't respect that, then I can only hope you can summon up enough disrespect for him to drop the invitation.
Best of luck!